Meh

There was just a birthday party that i didn't go to even though almost all my friends went. I guess the reason for that is that I was lazy and that I was kinda jealous that she has such good friends. I can't imagine anyone doing a birthday surprise on me. I guess what goes around comes around. I was never really the type who really cares about other people, let alone their birthdays. Very egocentric right? I know it's a bad thing. So how can I expect people to care about me if I don't care about them? If I want people to care about me, I need to care about them. So I should've come to her surprises and shit. So all I can say now is meh