Special Ballad -- "Love Story"

Unlike my previous poems that I have posted here, which is an iambic tetrameter (though without the iambs), this poem is an iambic PENTAmeter (with the iambs apparently).
This poem is inspired by the book I am currently reading for my Literature class: Geoffrey Chaucer's The Canterbury Tales.
Enjoy!
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“Love Story”

On one eventful day, I saw her there
She’s sitting all alone without a friend
As I looked on, I saw that she was fair
And so I came to her whom I’ll befriend
Preferable is this than solitaire
So after many days and months we’ve spent
We finally became the perfect pair

Rhyme scheme: ababa

Haven't written anything in a long time.....

Readers, you might have noticed that I have not updated my blog recently. I am here to give you an explanation to this behavior of mine. If you read my whole blog, then you might have realized that most of the posts in it are about my emotional instability. That is true; I usually write things here to convey my feelings and to organize my stray thoughts. Recently though, my emotions have stabilized. A part of growing up means to learn how to control your emotions so I have to learn that lesson. From sorrow to heartbreak, from failure to dismay; I have to act instead of just writing stuff here. That is why I haven't written much here recently.....CAUSE I WAS BUSY HAVING FUN WITH MY LIFE!!! =] =] =] So if you want me to post stuff here more often, do something that will make me emotionally unstable lololololol!

Easter Holiday Resolution

Okay, so Easter holiday has arrived and though the holiday only lasts for two weeks, I want to make the most out of this break. Not exactly by making the most out of the games I have (though I have been guilty of doing that), but by focusing on important things such as my relationship with God, my talents, my health, etc. I recently have not stayed true to my New Year resolutions because of school and other sh*t so this Easter holiday is the perfect opportunity to get back on track. So these are my goals for this Easter holiday.

INSIDE
1. Renew my relationship with God
-Start reading at least three chapters of the Bible a day again to finish the Bible by the end of this year
-Begin and end every day in prayer (check)

2. Make it a habit to always be in good character -- enthusiastic, obedient, attentive, etc
-I know what to do lah

3. Try to be more talkative
-Talk to who? meh lol

OUTSIDE
1. Improve my outer appearance
-Always show confidence in my face and posture wherever I go as well as...
-Improve my pimple condition so that hopefully there will be none when I go back to school. Less pimples = more confidence = more attractive! (I have my ways to do this...)

2. Improve my diet
-Eat one fruit a day if available (most of the time they aren't)
-Eat little to none junkfood and oily stuff (junkfood check oily stuff not quite)
-Drink eight glasses of water a day (almost check)

3. Renew my exercises
-Do body stretches and exercises every day
-Do vocal exercises every day
-Do clarinet/saxophone evercises at least thrice a week

So those are my goals and I hope that when I go back to school people will see me as a much better person especially HER. God help me accomplish these goals and to all my readers: PRAY FOR ME! :D

Don't Get Sick: Domino Effect

This last week was definitely the worst week of this school year for me. I don't wanna sound like a whiner and I am not writing this to whine; I am only organizing my thoughts so that I can more effectively plan how to get out of it. I am a winner not a whiner ;) Indeed, this week was not my week because of only one reason -- I was sick. Talk about domino effect!

First, let's state the obvious -- being sick sucks. When you are sick, you naturally feel weak and stressed out. I was sick for the whole week so this week was filled with laziness and stress. I was not able to do any of my daily exercises(body, vocal, and music) and that made me feel even worse. Coupled with the likely assumption that she hates me and is avoiding me, I really had no zest this week.

Second, being sick made me unable to come to school on Friday and I missed a lot of my homework (including my journal!). I also couldn't focus on school and even left my pencil case, MSA-lined, loose-leaf, and notebook on Monday! As a result, I missed ANOTHER journal for Wednesday and forgot to do my summa :( Thankfully, Mr. Markus gave me a chance of redemption for my journals. So 3 journals and an enconium I don't know how to do due Friday, sweet! I worked my butt off Thursday and finished them all *phew*. WHAT A HECTIC WEEK.

Third, a side-effect of being sick (or unhealthy) is the growth of unwanted features on my face. Yes, I am talking about pimples. For some reason, BOOM! so many this week -_-' My mom said that it is because I was sick so I guess I have a good excuse for it :/ Here is the logic: pimples = not confident in front of people = not talking = bad image in front of everyone including her. PIMPLES SUCK.

Omg, I just made a whole essay about why this week was so bad for me. I guess we can learn a lot of things from this. Readers, don't get sick -- they suck. Everything above happened because I did not guard my health, so don't be like me and waste a whole week. Haha, well this week is over and I can start fresh next week. I am already feeling better so no more unwanted mishaps! Next week will be much better!

Ballads #3

Despite the previous failure
to simply talk to her
I'll overcome this barrier
I'll move from what we were

Though romance between me and her
seems very unlikely
I'm satisfied if me and her
If she'd be friends with me

Maturity is surely not
determined by one's age
Though she is older, it does not
mean I've not reached her stage

Ballads #2

My friends are always pushing me
We're going way too fast
I guess I have to let them be
I'm having such a blast!

This jealous feeling that's inside
is just a part of me
This quiet look I show outside
I long to show my glee

Obsession is my specialty
I don't know how to stop!
But should I stop? It puzzles me
I must be at the top

Why I Like Mondays!

All my life, almost everyone I know have said that they hate Mondays. All my life, I hear the same things regarding the "dreaded" Mondays. But for me, I've never really had a problem with them. For me, Mondays are just like the other days of the week. Sure, there is this slight longing for more of the weekends but why should I let that one reason bug me for the whole day?In fact, recently I am actually starting to like Mondays and hate Fridays! I know that Fridays are usually other people's favourite day because of its proximity to the weekends but school life has pushed me to start disliking it.

Since school is probably the biggest factor of people's opinions regarding the days of the week, it kinda makes sense. I live in an abnormal school, so I have abnormal taste. Let's face it: Being an MSA student, I live an abnormal life. I used to only come to school on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays; but now I go to school every day except Tuesdays and Sundays. Friday isn't the last day of school for me; Saturday is. *sigh* Saturday WOULD be okay if it weren't for Performing Arts practice which usually ends at around 5 o'clock -_-'

So anyways, here is the simplified Pros and Cons of Mondays and Fridays:

Mondays
Pros:
-A fresh start, leaving behind last week's failures
-Strengthened by Church on Sunday
-Flag ceremony (yes, I enjoy flag ceremonies)
-Only three lessons, all of them inside my home class
-Home from school early -- 2:30
Cons:
-Traffic is pretty packed
-Bible journal is due

Fridays
Pros:
(can't think of any lol!)

Cons:
-Humanities journal is due
-Listening to lectures for 4 hours straight
-Home from school late -- 4:30
-Home from school tired and wearing a sweaty outfit right after Dance ECA
-Home from school with packed traffic

So as you can see, Mondays are AWESOME while Fridays are HORRIBLE. But that doesn't mean that all of my Fridays are going to be bad days. Happiness is not a feeling, but it is a choice. Everyone has the choice to be happy against all odds. Even though Fridays stink, I'm not going to let that bring me down. If I choose to be happy, then I will be happy. This can apply to YOU too! Don't let ANY day bring you down! Be happy! :D

(a pro i left out for Monday is that I get the most chances to talk to the person i am trying to get close to, while a con i left out for Friday is that I get the least chances to talk to the person i am trying to get close to)

Cya!

Ballads #1

(not in a good mood when I wrote these ballads)

These awkward times are killing me
This love makes me feel weird
But through this love I do feel free
Confusions will be cleared

I don't know why I feel so shy
I think she feels the same
This awkwardness could make me cry
I'm losing in this game

To just be friends, what must I do?
To make this love normal?
What I should do, I have no clue
I'll have to be formal

Ballads intro

Being a teen is full of emotions waiting to burst out. A way for me to express myself is through this blog. But I can only write stuff here only when I am in front of a computer. Other times, I express them by writing poems/ballads that express how I truly feel inside.
But then I thought, "Why not combine the two ways"? Hehehe, I could publish my ballads here, and that is exactly what I will do!

The type of ballads that I usually write fit these descriptions:
-Has 4 stanzas
-Endings rhyme in an ABAB pattern
-Stanzas 1 and 3 have four iambs while stanzas 2 and 4 have three iambs

So, I like to make them in the Medieval style. There is one rule I left out -- that is, the rule about word emphasis. I hated that rule, so I deliberately left it out of my ballads.

Their quality might not be so good and the rhymes might sound forced, but at least they're original lol. Remember that these ballads really show how I feel right now, so enjoy reading my mind! ^_^

status explanation

Ok, so I have had the same crush for over three months now so I don't think it qualifies as a crush anymore. But I wouldn't call it true love yet. I know that I am a student in high school who should focus on his studies. It's not like I am flirting or anything lol I'm more mature than that! I know that both of us are not mature enough to try to do anything funny. We are all still in the process. I am in the process of being able to truly love someone :)

I know that high school is a place for friendship. Even though speaking and making friends doesn't come natural to me, I have pushed myself so hard this year. It might give me some awkward moments, but everyone had to go through them at some point in life. I am just experiencing it a lot later than others. What's important is that I keep up my self-CONFIDENCE, something I have lacked so much.

So it's not only about liking a girl, it's about my own character development. She is more of an inspiration and a hero than just a simple high school crush. I ain't a playboy nor am I a perv; I'm just a man trying to find my destiny.

I know that every good thing comes from you, God. I know that this experience will shape me even further to be the man you want me to be. Amen.